Allow synchronicity to show you the way
Don’t ignore strange occurences.
There was a huge turn of events that occurred in my life a little over a month ago. Prior to this turn of events, everything seemed ‘okay’ in my life. My anxiety was high, as I was adjusting to a new full-time job while completing my first book. Many things were lighting me up-and I felt pulled in different directions. My energy a bit scattered and ungrounded, yet passions running high. I had so many fun things planned out for the summer, and I was lit up. Through the chaos that is raising boys, a relationship, pets, friendships, a house, bills, work, and play-there were many strange occurrences, so strange in fact, that I could not ignore them. A sacred synchronicity was occurring. So strong that it was as if my guides/angels/God/the Universe (whatever your belief, I have always resonated with angels) were literally screaming at me to watch out. That something big was on the verge. and I gently made note. I knew it was coming-a death of sorts. I was petrified at my core, but I felt safe at the same time.
We are never truly alone
Everyone receives ‘signs’, guidance, and direction from the universe. Most of us just aren’t paying attention enough to actually receive it and utilize it in our decisions. I’ve always received my information in my dreams, and I’m an extremely a vivid dreamer. However, during this particular period of time, I was receiving synchronicity through multiple outlets. It felt like I was literally being showered with signs, and I knew in my heart that I was not in for an easy ride up ahead.
For a week before what I will refer to as my ‘fall’, I had the same recurring intense dream. It felt so real that I would wake up in tears, jaw clenched. The numbers started arriving this same week-11:11, 11:01, 11:10. and 11. Constantly. On clocks, signs, license plates, in the car. I would look at the clock every morning at 11:11. I would look at the clock at 11 after the hour, on the hour. I mentioned this to my partner. It was blowing my mind. it occurred nonstop for an entire week.
‘According to numerology, the number 11 is a “master number” which signifies intuition, insight, and enlightenment. When paired together, 11 11 is a clear message from the universe to become conscious and aware. Many people suggest that seeing 11 11 signifies that your spirit guides are attempting to contact you. In my experience, 11 11 seems to be the number of spiritual awakening, signifying that you are on the right path and your actions are aligned with your Soul’s purpose’ -read more
Each night I draw a few cards from my oracle deck (part of my nightly ritual). The deck warned me with the same card, every night for several nights in a row. No matter how much I would shuffle the deck, I would draw this same warning.
Finally, my intuition (or psychic antennae) has always been turned way up. In fact, often times I need to make a conscious effort to dial it way down. I feel everything in my gut so strongly. As an empath, I feel things at an intensity that I cannot even begin to describe.
I felt in my gut that something intense was about to happen.
Thrown out of the nest
Just fall, they said.
Then it happened, I was completely thrown out of my nest. All the ‘warnings’ led me to an act of total devastation. My heart gutted, my world turned upside down. Trembling, on my knees, gut-wrenching pain. Yet deep down, I knew that I was going to be okay, as the universe whispered to me over and over ‘just fall’, ‘just fall’ ‘just fall.’
So I fell.
I hit the concrete.
And I sobbed.
‘Surrender’ they said, in songs-on memes, tiny whispers in my ear. All the warnings-the vivid dreams, it all happened as real as in my premonitions. It all led me to this place of total darkness. An eclipse. A death. Pitted. Yet deep down I knew I was going to be okay. I knew it was happening for me, not to me. I knew I was not alone.
“To be fully alive, fully human, and completely awake is to be continually thrown out of the nest. To live fully is to be always in no man’s land, to experience each moment as completely new and fresh. To live is to be willing to die over and over again.”
-Pema Chodron, When Things Fall Apart
Accept that you are never alone
Sometimes it feels like the world is against us, but it’s not. Sacred synchronicity reminds us that we are not victims. Life happens for us-not to us, the good and the ‘bad.’ The light and the dark. The ying and the yang. In time, we realize what we thought was ‘bad’ was actually a blessing for us. Out of the darkness comes a beautiful, illuminated path. Pay attention to the signs. Listen to your guides. Know that you are never alone. Embrace the darkness-don’t reach for addictions and distractions. Trust in the fall. Surrender at every moment. Allow for darkness. Feel the pain. Let go.
Many things may go ‘wrong’ in your life, but it’s never truly wrong. What we perceive as wrong, is leading us to find our right. Don’t give up. Keep looking for those signs from above that you are on the right path. After my fall, I had several small falls, almost like dominoes set into motion. My life was ferociously rushing towards my calling at a lightning fast pace. I had several people who I thought were part of my path simply disappear and fall away, and new people seemingly appear, resonating more clearly with my goals and direction. As hurt and betrayed as I felt, I knew I couldn’t stay down. I knew that I was being guided towards something better for me.
“The only time you fail is when you fall down and stay down.” -Stephen Richards
Write your heart out, they said.
I started to understand that this sacred synchronicity was leading me in the direction that I needed my life to go in. That I needed to write my heart out, and place my energy there. That I have so many very important messages to share with the world. People and things had to be moved out of my path, so space could be there for this to happen. That I needed to allow myself to write from my heart and be more vulnerable than ever before, to follow my intuition and my passions. These sacred synchronicities are guiding us to where we need to be, even if that place appears really scary at first. Even if it’s not what we think we want-it’s what we need, and in time we will realize this. Every single moment, let go and trust in it.
If you are ungrounded, struggling to focus, or feeling like you need guidance and direction with your life, just ask for signs. Look for signs. The answers are always there for you. Sometimes it takes a very painful experience to occur, in order to be able to settle into the direction that is best for you and your higher purpose here. Yes, it fu*king sucks. Hurting is never fun. Surrender to this pain. Surrender to the unknown. Know that light will follow. Seek the guidance. Ask for signs, and you will get them.
We are a part of something much bigger than ourselves.
I had a really rough night last week. I was feeling highly triggered and in a very dark place. I held my heart and I cried. I reminded myself that it would pass like crashing waves are followed by a calm serenity. After darkness, there is always some light. I asked my angels for a sign. The next morning I woke up to a very positive and uplifting e-mail from my book editor! This e-mail reminding me I was on my path, and that everything would be okay.
“I do believe in an everyday sort of magic — the inexplicable connectedness we sometimes experience with places, people, works of art and the like; the eerie appropriateness of moments of synchronicity; the whispered voice, the hidden presence when we think we’re alone.” -Charlies de Lint
Everyone receives ‘signs’, guidance, and direction from the universe. Most of us just aren’t paying attention enough to actually receive it and utilize it in our decisions. Anytime I ask for a sign or direction now, I receive it and I trust in something bigger than myself. I know that I am being guided and that I have a purpose.
Sacred synchronicity reminds us that we are all a part of something very big, much bigger in fact, than our worries and fears. Synchronicity reminds us that we are never truly alone. Even when we feel like we are in total darkness, are always surrounded by light and love.